today.....today.....today.....
gotafriendrequestfromnadyaonmsn...she'sagirlobviouslyandshe'shairil'sfriend.that'swhat shetoldmeshesaidthatsheneedtotellmesomethingabouthairil'sfeeling....bythetimeshetoldmethis,manyquestionscrossedmy mind(ishegoingtobreakwithme?nadyaishairil'struegf?hairil doesn'tlikemeanymore?)Butinsteadofstoppinghertotellmeanything yet,itoldhertgaheadandsay.....hereshegoes.......shesaidthathairildoesn'tlikemeoget jealouseasilywhenhetalktoothergirls....butshesaidthateventhoughhairildoesn'twanttbreakwithme...........shesaidalotofhingsabouthim,butI'mnotgoing mentineverything.iwascryingandcryingwhileypingonthe keyboard.....and i wasasking myselfwhyi'm sosensitive,why?why?WHY?.....i thinkitsallmyfaulthat hiswould happen,if tsnotbecauseof me,thiswould not have happen in the first place....I'm terribly sorry,hairil.....I knowthatimwrongafter all,I reallyknowthat.forgivemeplease."thekniveigoingdeeperanddeeperrightnw,i don'tknowhowlongi canstillsurvive...."
